I’m That Girl – Who Talks to Herself!


Well, I have been terrible. First I want to apologize – I have been a little stuck in my own world and haven’t written anything in a very long time. Totally my fault and if you have come back to read and found nothing – SORRY! If you are reading this – THANK YOU! for not deserting me. So, I must have been up to an awful lot to not be writing huh? Not exactly……

I am definitely starting some new chapters in my life but I am also really enjoying the now. Ever heard “you can’t be comfortable with someone until you are comfortable in your own skin”? Well, I thought it was a sack of crap. No one really likes themselves entirely – right? I never did, there was always something wrong with how I looked, how I talked, what I said to that stranger….

Side Note and Funny Story: We moved to WV, had lived here a few months and I had met a new friend through my husband. She babysat in her home and so there were always a lot of kids. She had her own 3 and her husbands 3 and whomever she was babysitting. I was happy to know someone in this new town! I was in Wal-Mart a few weeks later and I waved super big and yelled across half the store at the checkout area “Hey! How are you?!” – Yeah it wasn’t anyone I knew. (epic fail!)

Back on track – So, I didn’t really believe anything about loving yourself so much you enjoyed being with yourself in the quiet and were so okay with that that you actually get a little upset when it was interrupted. Of course, I always loved my alone time to take a bath and relax, or go grocery shopping without someone hanging on my pants leg and another someone running around screaming throwing odd food in the cart. But, alone, completely and totally, alone – how do you do that?

Since my older two children are at their dad’s in New York and my youngest went with her dad for the weekend – I had my opportunity. An entire weekend with nothing planned. What to do? I started with a bottle of champagne and a pizza and a movie. I walked around in my skivvies (windows closed!), I watched TV at 2am and slept at 10am. I ignored my phone and I still did mom things like cleaning the fridge.

At the end of the weekend I was relaxed. I didn’t find myself having to call someone to go do something – I got this! I was finally so okay with being by myself that had it been rudely interrupted I probably would have slammed the door in someone’s face.

Thankfully, that didn’t happen. At the end of the weekend I actually was ready to spend time with other people. I now know the value of being by yourself and how rewarding, comforting, and energizing it can be. No matter where I go in my life, I will continue to make sure that every now and then, I still have those weekends – everyone needs them.

1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Thelma Foster
    Jul 18, 2013 @ 18:03:39

    You are doing great baby girl! I love reading about this journey that you are on and how you are growing within yourself. You are an amazing woman and a wonderful mother and daughter! I love you!

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