Thoughts Become Things


I am in the midst of such a transformation that I had to write about it. I have some amazing conversations with people in my life that are unforgettable. Some of these conversations happen at such an awesome time that I fully understand, that I am never alone. I have come so far, and yet I have far to travel. I cannot express how open I feel at this moment and how truly blessed I am.

My life is certainly not what I ever thought it would be when I was a little girl. Moments of it are unforgettable and yet other moments I wish I could forget. I am grateful for every bit of it. I have truly realized that all of my relationships and connections in life are a lesson in my journey to being the self I was made to be.

I am sure you have heard the quote “Be yourself, everybody else is already taken.” I always saw that and thought, that’s cute. And never paid much attention to it. It is a very subdued way of saying what it is that I now feel.

When I think now about yoga and how i used to see it versus how I see it now, it amazes me. I thought of meditation as an act, something you do. It is that. However, I now feel the connection to being open, meditating and aligning with the greater being of the world. For me, that is God. For you, that might be the Universe, Mother Nature, or something else. When I think of meditation, I see the inner body being opened up to receiving what God has for me. The enlightenment, the filling of knowledge, power in knowing myself and feeling the connection. I cannot fully describe to anyone who has never experienced this, how awesome it truly is. Being self aware and connected.

I am aware of who I am, who I am becoming and where I want to be. My great friend today told me the universe always has my back, I just have to put out there what I want. How true that is. I am so grateful for the people in my life right now. Every one of them has something so positive to add. Every one of them are helping to teach me a lesson in being the person I strive to be and the person that I am underneath. Even if they don’t know it.

A year and a half ago I wrote out my values and what they meant to me. I now have something in my life that is resonating with those values. It took me a little bit to see it and it felt weird. Now I know that what I am feeling is the beginning of fulfillment of something I set out to create in my life. Everything in life starts as a thought.

Putting these connections together has me imagining and believing, opening up and understanding. This is AWESOME!

Awareness Tree

Live Outside the Box


So……my bucket list. Yeah, that’s still on the table. I have been thinking about how I have done some but haven’t really worked to make anything on my list happen.

Bucket List’s in general typically have a theme. The theme of mine was “finding myself”. I added the items to my list because they were things that I thought would broaden my horizons and help me to realize things that I could do or that I liked.

I was thinking this week about my list and realized that I looked into taking a cooking class but there weren’t any in the area. I looked into learning to draw and I didn’t find a class so I put it aside. There is a theme here. Hmmmm. I am definitely an all or nothing kind of person, I am clearly looking for companionship and friendship in different outlets than normal and I really need to step outside this box I am living in!!

I realized that we have the internet. You tube has tutorials for everything! I didn’t have to spend money on something for it to teach me or be an eye opening experience. We are not living in a Hallmark movie where everything is just right there and you have magic amounts of time and your job doesn’t fire you because you go to yoga and come in late to work. (Boy what a world).

So, I bought a sketch pad, pencils and an eraser. I found a website – or 4 – and set out to draw a tree. I had this idea because a tree standing in the middle of the field alone is a sign to me of tranquility, calmness, openness, vulnerable yet strong and uplifting. I want this image above my bed. (Maybe my beliefs about trees will seep into my head while I am sleeping?)

The tutorial I found was very good. It showed me a very new way to think about drawing. The artist is talented and created a very beautiful tree – exactly the kind of picture I am looking for. After following the tutorial I have realized, its probably not an exorbitant amount of money to purchase a nice sketch of a tree…….

I really can’t draw. I tried very hard. But I didn’t enjoy it and it’s absolutely ok to say, yup I’m not good at this but lots of people are. So my daughter is going to get a barely used sketch book since she is extremely artistic in her own right and some new pencils. I’m sure she will be quite happy.

Any ideas on where to buy the picture of the tree?

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