Just Breathe

You wake up, stare at the ceiling, thinking this is not where I want to be. I don’t want to get up. I don’t want to go to work today. I don’t want to do anything but lay here. Curl up inside your sheets as though they might protect you from everything you are hiding from. Sigh, you know what you have to do.

Head held high, dressed for the day, outside you look all put together. Inside is mush and you just float through the day hoping no one notices the truth. That no one can see behind your eyes to hear what your heart is screaming.

This is how you make it through the days. Day by day its just gliding, robotic, doing what is necessary but not fully present in the moment. Its completely understandable. You have been through a lot. Who else wouldn’t be just like this?

You aren’t really awake if this is how you are living. Just take a deep breath and step outside the shell you’ve created again. It wont help you. It will only isolate you from what you want so dearly. Breathe. You can do this. Remember, you are more. You deserve the life that you want.

Are you willing to go after it?

Nilofer Merchant – Steps to Living Your Purpose – Oprah.com

Nilofer Merchant – Steps to Living Your Purpose – Oprah.com.

Wow, its as if I am the only one in the room and the only one being talked to. After just completing my first kind act, its as if I was just given permission (not that I was asking for it) to be doing exactly what I’m doing. I have never visited the Oprah.com site before today and I only saw this because i was on twitter making a comment. Wow, God is a great God and mysterious at that. What are your thoughts on this article?

And She’s Off……


So, here I am. This picture was taken at the end of April 2013 on a day at the park. This is two months before my 30th birthday and 2 weeks before the biggest eye opening event of my life.

My relationship of 10 years is on the line, divorce filed, getting uglier by the minute thanks to yours truly. My boss had come to me to give me an unconventional proposal which turned out to be a proposal of a lifetime. I was gifted with this amazing opportunity to attend a program to learn how to center my life. Sounds…..normal right? So I decided I would go. Out of this experience I realized the life I had been living is the same one I kept running from. I didnt know who I was or even wanted to be but I knew nothing was going my way.

This blog has been born out of the need to find out who I am, what I like and learning how to live life. I have a lot of years in me and I dont intend to waste anymore.

On June 22, 2013 I will turn 30! I had been scared of this year but I am now so ready for it. I keep hearing how my 30’s will be the age of discovery and learning and I couldnt be more excited. I am happy to say that I am working on mending my relationship rather than divorcing which I never thought would be possible or even something I would want to do – but believe me when I say…..I have never wanted anything more.

So, now was the question, how in the world am I going to start figuring out who I am or what I want? A BUCKET LIST! Im going to post my bucket list of 30 things to complete before my 30’s are over and I will blog along the way, sharing my thoughts, ideas, how well these things go…….or dont go 🙂 No matter how any of turns out, I know that I am going on the best adventure of my life.


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