My Job Is A Monster and My Laundry Swallowed Me

Motivation. There I said it. It’s a dirty word. Well, OK at least for me right now.

You sit down to get started on work but your brain is not with you. Your body is there but you can’t focus. So, aha! De-clutter I think. I clean my desk, get rid of things I don’t need. There! Now that mound is a very small pile and not nearly as distracting.¬†Now, I can work.


OK, I think, lets get some music going. I put on my playlist of my “most loved” songs. I open my email and see an email from my boss that says “let’s discuss this”. I close the email and stare at the computer.

Why oh why can I not get my butt moving? I manage to get through the day and when its over and I’m sitting on my couch staring at a pile of laundry and massive amount of clutter all where it doesn’t belong – it hits me all over again.

OK, get up, do one thing and you will feel better. At least that sounds good in my head. I pull the basket of laundry over to me then I see my massively comfortable comforter on my couch and OH! there’s my pillow. It must be calling my name!!

Next thing I know, I’m laying on my couch watching pointless television trying to ignore the things in my field of vision that irritate me. Again –¬†why can I not get motivated?

The advice I get from Psychology Today is literally “So figure out what you want, power through the pain period, and start being who you want to be.” Really? Its that easy huh? THINK AGAIN!! For some of us, where do you even get the motivation to power through the pain?

As I start searching for answers I come upon the fact that motivation and self control are linked. Really?! If I have little self control how can I then motivate myself? Makes sense I guess. So I take a self control quiz. The answer? I scored in the very bottom “Bulk up your self control muscles start exercising them today.”

Great! Now, I’m not motivated¬†and I don’t have self control. Gee, I’m certainly the essence of a loser here huh? Uh oh. Bad thought. Then I start reading some of my own posts. I remember, don’t beat yourself up over everything. Some days will be good and some will not. OK, so now its time to really think about what is going on here.

It seems that when I am faced with situations that are overwhelming, I shut down. If I don’t have a clear path of “this is what needs to be done first”, then I just can not function. It’s like standing in front of an overflowing closet knowing it needs to be organized but not having a single clue what to start with.

Some might say “just start”, others think “determine your outcome so you know where to begin” and still yet, you could hear “baby steps, do a little today, a little tomorrow etc.”. Are any of them wrong? Not really. What works for you? All of these do the same thing – break it down into manageable pieces. I am a lot better and cleaning my living room when I decide that I am going to clean the coffee table. By the time I am done, I have cleaned two rooms and it was easy.

So whether it’s work, the house, the bills, exercise or something else that plagues you – break it down. If you let it tower over you like a horrible animal trying to eat you, it will consume you and you will be frozen in fear. Recognize your roadblocks and handle them one by one. I wasn’t able to get motivated because something more was going on in my life and until I dealt with it, it was going to keep tripping me up and making me feel terrible.

You have the ability to change your life and be the best you that you can be. So tell me, what do you do when you realize you are in a slump, unable to accomplish anything that you want and beating yourself up? How do you overcome that fear or those feelings to get back on track?

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